Life update...

Alright guys, I figure you're all due for an update on how things are going over here. Fair warning, life kinda sucks right now so this entry isn't exactly gonna be all sunshine and roses. 

I actually don't remember how much I've told you all, I've been kinda absent from DA for a long time now... 

A year ago (feb 2nd) my little brother passed away. It was completely unexpected and it's been hard without him here. About 6 weeks later we lost my great grandfather to cancer. While I wasn't super close to him, he was still my family and I still loved him a lot. I graduated high school in June, and started college in September. The college I was at turned out to be a horrible idea and I wish I'd applied to my dream school instead. I stayed local because A. it was more affordable, and B. My then boyfriend was going to community college and I didn't want to leave him behind. So I dropped out of school there and started at community college this semester. I also lost my mentor/veterinarian in late October, and another close family friend the day before Thanksgiving. 

Early December I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's Hypothyroidism. Which basically means my body is attacking my thyroid, causing a severe lack of energy, joint pains, 'brain fog' etc, among other health issues. It means that I might never be able to have biological children (something I've always wanted to be able to do), will likely always have joint pain and other issues like that, and will be on medication for the rest of my life. A lot of people with the disease cannot continue in the workforce because it's so hard to actually get your health back once you've been diagnosed. As a couple of you know, I had/have plans to attend veterinary school, and the idea that I may never be healthy enough to actually make it through the very intense schooling kills me. I go to see an Endocrinologist soon to start on medication and figure out a plan to at least improve my health. 

And to top off what has actually been the worst year of my life, my boyfriend of 19 months left me four weeks ago and won't speak to me anymore. He was my best friend for 5 1/2 years and he decided that I was no longer important enough to keep around. I just started talk therapy and am on medication to keep my anxiety at bay, but it only helps so much. 

I will say, however, that ShapeShifter314 has been a huge blessing these past few months, and the past month especially. <3 

So yeah... Life right now really kinda sucks. It's getting better, slowly, but I'm not going to be alright for a very long time. I'm going to try to get back into my artwork as a release soon. I miss you all, and I miss the community we had through the HARPG stuff.